Day 21: May 2, 2017
Challenge: Dye your hair
Challenge: Write a secret in your journal
I like performing. I love being on stage and having people look at me and applaud me. I like this because I get to be someone else. I get to put my heart into something and get judged without the feeling of being judged, because people aren't judging me, they're judging the character. In my real life, however, I don't like attention. I try to blend into the background and hide behind other people. I like to sit at the back, keep my head down, keep my comments to myself, and attempt to be as inconspicuous as possible. This challenge was to do something to myself that would intentionally bring attention to me. I didn't want to just dye my hair to cover the grays, although I accomplished that, too, I wanted to dye my hair an outlandish color so that it would make people stop and stare. I wanted to do this because I wanted to be brave. I wanted to tell the world that I am proud of who I am and my appearance, and I don't care who stares at me, and I don't care what other people think. I didn't get super crazy with my hair, I did a rainbow homre kind of thing that was three different colors at the bottom and underneath, but mostly my natural color on top. I thought it was really fun, and I felt very cool every time I walked out in public. It's funny how a little hair dye can give you so much confidence. I thought my hair was awesome, and I loved the attention that I got from strangers when I walked by. I didn't care that 40 was kind of old to be doing crazy things, I didn't care that people made comments about my weight (strangers always think that's their place), I just felt beautiful and confident.
I did two challenges this day because I needed a break. The second one was a little more simple, but also more difficult. The second task of the day was to write a secret in my journal, something that I've never told a soul. I did this because keeping things bottled up is not great for mental health, but also I've got secrets that nobody should have to bear. I know that sounds deep and dark, but that's just the way it is sometimes. Sometimes you experience something, or even just experience a feeling, and you don't want to burden someone else with it, but you know you can't keep it to yourself. This, I think, is where writing it down is helpful. Writing with a pen is very thereaputic for me, and I sometimes forget that that is a gift that I have access to when I need a release of emotion. This was a good reminder to take time more often to write.
Challenge: Dye your hair
Challenge: Write a secret in your journal
I like performing. I love being on stage and having people look at me and applaud me. I like this because I get to be someone else. I get to put my heart into something and get judged without the feeling of being judged, because people aren't judging me, they're judging the character. In my real life, however, I don't like attention. I try to blend into the background and hide behind other people. I like to sit at the back, keep my head down, keep my comments to myself, and attempt to be as inconspicuous as possible. This challenge was to do something to myself that would intentionally bring attention to me. I didn't want to just dye my hair to cover the grays, although I accomplished that, too, I wanted to dye my hair an outlandish color so that it would make people stop and stare. I wanted to do this because I wanted to be brave. I wanted to tell the world that I am proud of who I am and my appearance, and I don't care who stares at me, and I don't care what other people think. I didn't get super crazy with my hair, I did a rainbow homre kind of thing that was three different colors at the bottom and underneath, but mostly my natural color on top. I thought it was really fun, and I felt very cool every time I walked out in public. It's funny how a little hair dye can give you so much confidence. I thought my hair was awesome, and I loved the attention that I got from strangers when I walked by. I didn't care that 40 was kind of old to be doing crazy things, I didn't care that people made comments about my weight (strangers always think that's their place), I just felt beautiful and confident.
I did two challenges this day because I needed a break. The second one was a little more simple, but also more difficult. The second task of the day was to write a secret in my journal, something that I've never told a soul. I did this because keeping things bottled up is not great for mental health, but also I've got secrets that nobody should have to bear. I know that sounds deep and dark, but that's just the way it is sometimes. Sometimes you experience something, or even just experience a feeling, and you don't want to burden someone else with it, but you know you can't keep it to yourself. This, I think, is where writing it down is helpful. Writing with a pen is very thereaputic for me, and I sometimes forget that that is a gift that I have access to when I need a release of emotion. This was a good reminder to take time more often to write.
— Stacy Mayren (@StacyLeeSnider) May 3, 2017
Second one, because I skipped yesterday: write a secret in your journal. #40daysto40 #birthdaychallenge #nevertold #soulhealing— Stacy Mayren (@StacyLeeSnider) May 3, 2017
