Day 40: May 21, 2017, the day before my 40th birthday
Challenge: Tell Mom all about it
Part of the whole reason for this challenge is that I was feeling very lost in my life. My dear mother passed away just a few months before my 39th birthday, and in the year after she died, I tried so many different directions and had so many different things happen. I started a doctorate degree, but then decided that wasn't the right path for me. I got my first ever kidney stones - so painful - and had to have surgery. I had to have part of my parathyroid removed, and my voice changed forever. I was sad, and aimless, and falling into a well of despair. I had always had my mother to talk to, even after she became disabled. Even when I lived halfway around the world, even when I had to take care of her physical needs, even when I couldn't do it anymore and she had to go live in a nursing home, she was always there for me, giving me advice that only a mother could. I didn't know quite what to do without her advice, but I knew that if I continued on the path that I was traveling, I would end up next to her in the cemetery before very much longer. I needed something drastic to get me out of myself, to remind me that God is good and has a plan for me, to help me be brave enough to experience the world on my own. My sweet sister, Betsy, helped me design the challenge, and away we went. I learned so much about myself, and about the way I'd been treating myself. I just know that my mother is very proud of my accomplishments and my life. I wanted to tell her about how I'd changed, and what was happening in my life. I wanted to let her know that even though I still miss her fiercely every day I am finding ways to be happy.
I know that she is watching over me from Heaven, celebrating my triumphs and crying over my defeats. I know that she is pleading with the Father on my behalf. I know she misses me as much as I miss her. And I know that I'll see her again someday.
Challenge: Tell Mom all about it
Part of the whole reason for this challenge is that I was feeling very lost in my life. My dear mother passed away just a few months before my 39th birthday, and in the year after she died, I tried so many different directions and had so many different things happen. I started a doctorate degree, but then decided that wasn't the right path for me. I got my first ever kidney stones - so painful - and had to have surgery. I had to have part of my parathyroid removed, and my voice changed forever. I was sad, and aimless, and falling into a well of despair. I had always had my mother to talk to, even after she became disabled. Even when I lived halfway around the world, even when I had to take care of her physical needs, even when I couldn't do it anymore and she had to go live in a nursing home, she was always there for me, giving me advice that only a mother could. I didn't know quite what to do without her advice, but I knew that if I continued on the path that I was traveling, I would end up next to her in the cemetery before very much longer. I needed something drastic to get me out of myself, to remind me that God is good and has a plan for me, to help me be brave enough to experience the world on my own. My sweet sister, Betsy, helped me design the challenge, and away we went. I learned so much about myself, and about the way I'd been treating myself. I just know that my mother is very proud of my accomplishments and my life. I wanted to tell her about how I'd changed, and what was happening in my life. I wanted to let her know that even though I still miss her fiercely every day I am finding ways to be happy.
I know that she is watching over me from Heaven, celebrating my triumphs and crying over my defeats. I know that she is pleading with the Father on my behalf. I know she misses me as much as I miss her. And I know that I'll see her again someday.
Tell Mom about life! #40daysto40 #birthdaychallenge #lastone! #birthdayistomorrow #Imissherfiercely pic.twitter.com/zpHxlDTTEL— Stacy Mayren (@StacyLeeSnider) May 21, 2017
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